Jack Gosiewski has revealed the heartbreak after potentially sacrificing his NRL career for the birth of his first child, and the role Anthony Griffin played in his Dragons' departure.
The back-rower played 52 NRL games between South Sydney and Manly before joining St George Illawarra this season for what should have been a breakout season for the 28-year-old.
It wasn't.
While the edge forward doesn't have a deal with any club for 2023 as of yet, he does have a healthy five-month-old son, Goldie, a priority Gosiewski has made crystal clear as he comes clean over his disappearance from the Red V's top side.
Featuring in four of St George Illawarra's opening ten games via the bench, Gosiewski broke through and finally earned a starting role for their Round 11 clash against New Zealand, however things got crazy when childbirth complications emerged.
โWe were set to play on the Saturday and we ended up having our son on the Friday,' Gosiewski recalled toย News Corp.ย
โMy missus went through pretty much two full nights of labour at home and then on the Friday morning we ended up going to the hospital and she ended up having a C-section.
โSo I had missed captain's run and the game was the next day.
โBecause of what I had been through emotionally and physically, like I pretty much hadn't slept for two days and then obviously the stress of having the C-section and going to the hospital was a lot, I thought that I would try and do the right thing by the team.โ
Griffin didn't name Gosiewski in the 17 again for the remainder of the season, playing his final match for the club in Round 10 at Magic Round, the week before his son was born.
While St George Illawarra struggled in the NRL and fell out of finals contention, Gosiewski picked up a spot in the NSW Team of the Year, talent was never the issue.
Gosiewski is adamant he was trying to put the team first and have Griffin select someone that had actually slept in the two days prior to the game, however 'Hook' (Anthony Griffin) didn't see it the same way.
โIf it was a once in a lifetime game like a grand final or a prelim I probably would have played,โ he continued.
โBut it was mid-year and I was trying to put the team first by putting someone fresher in.
โI didn't want to go out there and let myself down or let the team down so I put them first, and obviously my family.โ
The Dragons beat the Warriors 24-18 in that Round 11 clash, but the bridge was burnt.
The 28-year-old forward continually went to Griffin to find out what he needed to improve to return to the side and despite somewhat positive feedback, he was never selected again.
โAfter that when I was playing reserve grade and playing really good footy, I would ask, โHow am I going? What am I doing good?'
โPretty much the conversation would be, โYou are doing really good, just keep doing what you are doing'.
โBut that ended up to me having a four-month-old child and two pay cheques left and no contract. You know what I mean?
โI didn't think it would end up panning out the way it did. It obviously has and here I am.โ
The revelation comes days after George Burgess was granted an immediate release from the club, potentially ending his own NRL career, because he couldn't take another pre-season under Griffin.
"There is no point being there if the coach doesn't believe in me", Burgess said earlier in the week toย The Daily Telegraph.
While the decision may have also ended Gosiewski's NRL career, the edge forward has no regrets.
โI am not disappointed that I have got a beautiful healthy boy," he said.
โBut it would have been my biggest game for the year because if I had played decent in that game, which I am sure I would have, I would have stayed there.
โI was playing really good footy.ย I feel like at any other club I would have been playing NRL.
โAnd it is just that decision that sort of haunts me.
โMy missus was begging me to play because she knew how big of a game it was for me.ย Like, I would never change the decision, even knowing what the outcome was.
โI would happily do that again."
Despite being unsigned for 2023, The Daily Telegraphย reports that North Queensland may be interested as a replacement for Ben Condon at the club.
